A Robe Of Favor

19/11/13
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Tuhan tel bersyukur banget punya Bapa, to have U as my God, my Father, my Saviour, my Best Friend.. i want U to be my King, the God of my life, of my heart.. for so many things i did, for so many wrongs and sins hidden in me.. o Dad, U knew me well, much deeper than i do.. but U are always there.. U never leave, it heals my heart.. so glad that i don't have to heal Ur heart coz if i do, i wouldn't even know how, wouldn't even have the heart to do so, nor bear the sadness i've caused to U and to myself.. God.. i believe You.. and i'm sorry.. i'm so glad bcoz of Ur favor, Ur grace in me..  Lord... i need U... to be here, just need U, to be with U.. 

Tel baru nyadar bahwa Yusuf tidak melakukan kebaikan bagi saudara2nya semata2 demi ayahnya, tapi demi Tuhan.. he loved his dad, yet he did so much not for people to see, but for God to see coz even when his father died, he still did what's good.. mengasihi Tuhan dengan segenap hati dan melakukan perbuatan baik semata2 bagi kemuliaan Tuhan.. i'll learn n let U be my King.. n thou i may not be a good servant, teach me o King..

waktu tel mulai melihat Tuhan sebagai Raja, i see what i see and i got kinda shocked.. bcoz it's like there's a huge gap between me and Him (new servant and the King), yet we're so close to each other.. how can a new servant in the Kingdom sit on the lap of King's throne? so may be that is why He appointed His generals to mentor me along with Him.. i just realized o my, who am I that You are mindful of me? Daddy's little princess in the palace, but a pion on the chess board.. but God You have seen me from a far before time.. to place me as something else on that white troops of Yours.. to know that Your Kingdom has come to fight.. i humble down before U, casting all my crowns at Your feet.. none of them are genuine i know.. but at least, at least i know You never let me down.. at least i know You never cast me away.. at least i know... U never let me go, never have U given up on me thou serveral times have i thought of giving all up.. but U my God stays forever true.. 

Dad.. cast away all these fears and doubts.. let me not weep in grief, but be joyous in Ur Kingdom.. as i imagined myself, it is as if i'm wearing a weary white robe of cloth, dirty and clumsy.. but God U reminded me that U have given me a robe of honor in place of unrighteousness.. a robe of honor bcoz of favor, bcoz of Grace.. that i don't have to wear the one i'm wearing now, but be joyful as i dance in ur favor... bcoz of Ur cross, bcoz of Ur grace i have lived in Ur favor...