Aku Adalah Aku Dan Karyaku Melukiskan Aku

12/12/13
"Karena apa yang dapat mereka ketahui tentang Allah nyata bagi mereka, sebab Allah telah menyatakannya kepada mereka. Sebab apa yang tidak tampak dari pada Nya, yaitu kekuatanNya yang kekal dan keilahianNya, dapat nampak pada pikiran dari karyaNya sejak dunia diciptakan, sehingga mereka tidak dapat berdalih." Rm 1:19-20

To know God simply by looking at the work of His hands.. 

To always being missunderstood by people is a cross i have to always bare.. just like a limbless person being mocked by people around, so does a speechless me being mistaken overtime.. kecacatan jiwa yg tidak terlihat secara lahiriah.. buat aku berkomunikasi mungkin seperti orang cacat yang belajar jalan.. tapi buat orang lain jalan ya mudah-mudah aja.. i know if i keep trying, one day i can walk the way the others do.. leading people for me is like a limbless person racing a marathon.. hopelessly impossible, but what if Nick runs a marathon? wouldn't that bring so much glory to God? but see Lord, my imperfection r not seen outside so how could people even know? 

what r the desire of my heart? for people to know me through the songs i write, the arts i make is a way of communication.. to let people know what i mean, bcoz nothing heartless can come out from an artist.. we draw what we see, write what we feel, describe what we understand by music, movies, pictures, or even just a piece of scratch writing.. sometimes scribbles speak louder than tounge.. 

so exactly like what is written should i work less on people's thought and start working on the stuffs i gotta do.. so that my art represents who i am..

"Aku adalah aku... dan karyaku melukiskan aku."